So..i figured since pretty much no one reads these things anymore its pretty much safe to write whatever i want in it now. YAY

Update on vanessa:

Well im just now finishing up my 3rd year here at SDSU. Amazing how fast time flies! Just recently realized i want to get into social work. So now im going to be doing child deveopment and social work. I also recently got elected Vice President of Alpha Pi Sigma. Its going to be an amazing year next year. Kinda scared because i dont know what to expect..but still very excited. Im finishing up my work at the childcare center in la jolla. Really going to miss it there but i've worked there for 2 years now and its time to try something new.

I have been continuing my busy life and the more life goes on the more i realize how great life really is. Talking to a boy for the time being. Hes a nice guy. Name is Joe and things for the most part have been going well. Its just tough when you feel one way and your friends are telling you something else. Im trying to make the best decision for me though and no one else. I've been single for two years now...and dont get me wrong i've had TONS of fun being single..lol maybe too much fun. But now theres this guy who is trying his hardest to prove hes worthy of a chance with me and its just really hard to trust him.

other than that there really isnt anything new. Things with the roommates are going well. Shelleys uncle just recently passed away :( Sad new. Haley just recently turned 21..my new drinking buddy. Now we're waiting on shell bell to hit the 21 mark. Things with the sorority are well. Still very close to my Tau girls. Love them to death! Family things are ok. Ive come to terms with the fact that things will never really be perfect and i am very ok with that. brother is doing well though but still dont care for his gf.

The one thing i can say is new is that i've been disappointed with some old friends this past year. Yes people are getting older and discovering who they really are. It just sucks that who they really are isnt the person i knew back in the day and that changes a lot of things. Ok well im gonna cut it short before i write on for forever. maybe i'll post some more later on in the year. Who knows...every now and then i get a little urge to write in the xanga.

Vanessa

So...its been a couple of months but here i am back again. Things are still kinda stressful but looking better as time goes by.

We moved into our new house which is lovely. We have a huge backyard for Charlie to roam in. I love my puppy like no other! Started a job at Babies R Us just recently so that means when school starts up i will be working 2 jobs and going to school full time and being an active member of my sorority. Its going to be stress and chaos and it scares me to think about it...but im gonna fight and i WILL make it through this school year.

I find that i feel something is missing in my life. And NO i dont mean someone and really mean something. A lot of people think that you can just fill that missing part by finding someone to date. As i do admit its been a while since i've been in a relationship, but that is truely not what i really want right now.

My motivation for school just doesnt seem to be there anymore. Mom thinks i have burnt myself out. I tend to take on more than i can handle and i've been doing it ever since i can remember. It has all finally caught up with me and sometimes...its just too overwhelming. I admit i have been considering taking time off from school but the one thing i do not want is to move back to tulare. While tulare is home to many people that i love and cherish it also holds many things that i do not want to go back to.

summer school is over and all i have now is work. Hopefully the little bit of time away from the academic stuff will help me relax and prepare myself for the school year to come. I really do love SDSU and the friends that i've met here. We will see how it goes i guess.

I'm sure i will be writing again some other time but until then....good nite

Life is interesting. Went home last weekend for Easter. The weekend went by way too fast! Wanted to cry when it was time to drive back to San Diego. Not that i dont like it here. Just that I dont get to go home very often and my life is pretty much just about school and work. Work is great...school on the other hand...well its just school i guess.

I have a crush on someone. Something new considering that i haven had the slighest crush on anyone in over a year. Its nothing big. Not a big deal at all. Or maybe it is but i just fail to see it. I dont know...my mind works in weird ways sometimes.

Roommate life is going pretty good. I love these girls. We've had the tough times but overall...these girls are amazing. They have become some of my very best friends. Weird how u can go from not knowing someone to getting so close to them in a short amount of time. I cant imagine my life without any one of them in it!

cant think of anything else to write. gonna go talk to corey. play the question game for a little while. I hope u all have good days...BYE

Stress seems to come to me so naturally now. Well maybe not stress but just being busy. This week alone i'll be putting in 25 hours from working at Bishops and 15 hours with Corp. Kids. And thats on TOP of school work and trying to have time to have fun with the sorority sisters and my beautiful roommates. I must admit i've been having fun though. Coming home to the apartment or seeing the sisters is my Therapy. They make me laugh and forget about what it was im stressin about. Its wonderful!

Although school is stressful at times i'm actually doing really well this semester. I have a B in both Biology and Philosophy, English is still moving along alright and Linguistics...well thats the only class i seem to have a problem with. But its ok because i plan on taking classes at City college either in the spring, aside from the classes i'm taking here at state...or i might just wait to take the over the summer...not too sure yet but we will see. Things are hard but looking good and i'm really happy about it. Hard work really does get you somewhere. And although it may seem like im complaining i'm really not! All im saying is that I'm working my ass off and little by little the rewards are coming in..

Just thought I'd update you a little on whats going on. Have a good nite all!

So I havent posted on Xanga in forever. Poor xanga is being neglected now that myspace became so popular.

*well things are going well on my end. Work is still awesome of course. It kinda sucks having to wake up at 5:30 every morning but i like that i do a lot.

* school is going good. No official tests or anything yet so we'll see how those go

* Apartment life is great. I love these girls to pieces. We are always constantly laughing about the smallest and dumbest things in the world.

* Sorority life is going pretty well too! Havent been to busy with that lately but there are a couple parties coming up that i'm looking forward to. "You wish you were an Alpha!".